Thursday, December 3, 2009

My Absence

It has been a difficult few weeks but I want to let you know something that I discovered. I was in a great deal of pain and truly wished to die. I found little relief without very strong drugs and I was completely unable to care for myself. Fortunately, there was no need for concern since my children were there to take care of all the details.

I could have died and I was fully aware of that possibility. Since this is the first time I have been in such a position, I wondered just how I would react. Many have told me that when faced with death they question their beliefs, in either direction. I didn’t. I was and am proud to say I did not pray to any unseen god nor did I beg for divine intervention. I suffered the pain without any compromise.

As you may know, I have 2 very religious daughters, one quasi-religious daughter and a tolerant son. I am also proud that they did not try to convert me in my distress. I’m sure they prayed and asked for divine intervention but they did it in private, away from my bedside.

I thank them for that and I’m glad for me; glad that I did not reach for a crutch in my misery, glad that I faced real diversity and maintained my absolute doubt in a supernatural being.

Just thought you’d like to know.


rick b said...

I glad you can stand up for what you believe. But despite what you believe, when you die the pain and torment will increase and never end and no drugs to numb the pain.

I know you dont believe that and thats fine, but that does not change the facts. Rick b

Nicole said...

Hi there Interested: I was wondering what happened to you. I'm glad you're alive and kicking. I was envisioning maybe an extended travel schedule and no internet access. I guess that was that was not the case at all. Bummer.

How are you feeling now? I hope you at least had an ok Thanksgiving.

Interested said...

Nicole thank you for your concern. I am much better...not out of the woods yet but improving every day. I thank my doctors and my children every day for pulling me through.

My entire family was at my house for Thanksgving. The girls did the cooking and I was able to enjoy them all for short periods during the all day event. It was wonderful and I hope you had a great day as well.

Shelli said...

I just wanted to let you know that the only reason that you are alive now from your illness is that we (the Christians) were praying for you that you would not die and go to hell. We prayed for you to have another opportunity to accept Jesus Christ as Savior and Lord before you die. That is why you were spared. As we continue to talk to you about Jesus, your heart will either get harder or it will get softened and you will finally accept the truth. We have love for you from Jesus that compels us to speak the truth to you and pray for you. Ultimately, it is your decision to make. I am glad you had family around to care for you, and that you are feeling better. My heart was saddened to hear that your heart is so hard that you refused to call out to God when you were ill. We will continue to pray for you until we are caught up to Jesus, or we or you die.

Interested said...

Well Shelli, thanks for your concern but I think my doctors deserve more praise than your god.

Shelli said...

I would have to say you are wrong because the Docs are only human beings, God is God of the universe. He has a lot more knowledge than even the smartest man on earth could ever hope to achieve. I understand that that is what you would like to believe, but it is simply not true. God can take your very breath away if He desired, but He chose to spare you for a reason. I hope that you come to the truth soon. We will keep praying for you, whether you want us to or not.

Jeff said...

Hi, Interested.

Sorry to hear you apparently came so close to death. I certainly don't discount the skill of the doctors; after all, God gave that skill to them to use to heal people. But I'm wondering if maybe your children's prayers had anything to do with your recovery.

rick b said...

Again how can you say your a moral person. Now you removed any comments to the video and Jeffs rebutal, Boy what a liar you are. Your making me think I should start a blog all about you and how athiests lie and cannot stand reason or debate. Rick b

Interested said...

I did not remove anything. Jeff's comments are on the next post.

interested10 said...

I was on a public computer and it displayed it as no commentes avabile while all the rest were. It must have been a computer glitch. Sorry. Rick b